People and Me..

some people ask me how it feels,
that golden question of how does it feel...
when really its hard for me to feel at all
its more like, the me i once was, is distant
and far away from these flashing lights..

this persona that people have of me
this "your doin it now" or "cool guy"
like comments when if you aint proud
of me or dig what im really trying to do then
I dont need your company..

I dont need the lies, or the guilt, or the excuses
from anybody to be honest..
I'm good alone, and alone means to what people
think they see.. Im good people..

I dont need anybodies friendship at all
or the handshakes, the fake smiles
I mean you dont have to stab the kid in the back
im man enough to let you do it while im looking
at you.. I'd respect people more for that.

OH! and those people who know, always know
but arent doing anything.. Or the ones doing a little
and talking alot about what they arent doing.. not
what they "hope to be/want to do"

I mean come on yo, I am a person too trying
to make it so im saying niggas can be real with me
and niggas come in all colors so im talking of ignorance
not a color of skin.. so lets be real people..

Talk about pain when you arent hurting me..

I live by a couple things..

Love God, Be Me, Be Amazing...

and amazing being my full potential and confident..
and if you cant respect that
or my confidence, save your breath talkin about me
pretending to know me or be my friend or saying any word to
me unless you dig this movement and what im about
then please speak freely..

Build each other up.. not try to
tear buildings down cause this one is constructed too well
and no one likes your type anyway..
they always fall short and im happy in almost all areas
and the last area im is coming..

SIDENOTE:
(and man...
There is this girl who trips on me right
have you ever thought that bein a dude would be so hard
especially when it comes to trying not to make
a mistake when she looks for one all the time..
ALL THE TIME
like trips about stuff that doesnt matter..
now it was a look.. come on now... of something sloppy
and people wanna trip..
Im grown, never liked hoes, and im on my grind..
lets be real right now you know...
Im sure im not the dopest dude in the world
but i believe i can get any girl i wanted if i really
wanted to pursue and that goes for any guy in the world..
just about playing cards right but when i have the best hand
there is no need for me to keep exchanging cards in the deck..

why cant she see that! crazy i know...
but "but she's just a girl"
and "im just a boy"

trust i love her, and any pain felt
comes from either her or my family
2 of which i hold up highly in priorites)

Life is good and breathing is good
and God is the reason for them both..
get farther in life by lending a hand
and being yourself.. if they cant love that
then they will never truly love who you
are no matter who you plan to be..

Be Blessed

-Joon